Look I'm not really good at grovelling ok? But I will try and explain a bit more by demonstrating my life situation:Originally Posted by littlelolligagged
I'm a head case. I'm a miserable, lonely, out of work 36 year old who was forced by my own faults to move back in with my father. Before this I was always an independent person having moved out as soon as I hit my 18th birthday. I was married at age 23 and divorced at age 30. I have two children(girls) ages 12 and 10 whom I never see because they are 2200 miles away. I never leave the house, because I can't afford it. I receive unemployment benefits which barely pays the bills and will be running out soon. I drink a lot beer(cheap beer) because it helps me deal with my current situation a bit better. I play a lot of games which also helps. I used to be fun, out going, and happy go lucky if you will until all of this hit me.
I need a life for real which is why I really should engage in these forums more, it would probably help as well. Also I'm not looking for sympathy and I mean that. I just felt like sharing that with you.