Maybe you have a fear for commitment and change?
Teenagers can slack to youtube for a day.
But I get what you are saying, that is brave too.
My wife and I have been together for 10 years very soon. I fear she still doesn't understand me
but maybe that is entitled.
Right now she talks alot about communication... and I know she is right, so I'll try to stepup... but there are days when I need to be reminded.
She likes to relax, focus on now, do nothing when free from work, work in moderate.
I like to workout, focus on too many ideas, read and travel around, see how other people live, work a bit extra just to show off that I can - I don't have any ideas of 60-80h weeks, that is retarded, but... so yeah... :P
One have to be ready to give in or maybe thats a misstake?